The comments that came in on my last post reminded me to be myself. Some how, some where I lost sight of that notion and let everyone else's input and my inner critic take over my otherwise self-affirming brain.
Being that it's almost a new year, I've decided to pen a few resolutions that I hope I can master in the next year. Some will be insightful, some meaningful, some of them downright vapid. This list, like me, is ever-evolving so feel free to make suggestions. Similarly, if you've got your own list or are considering drafting a resolution wishlist, let me know. I'd love to be your accountabilibuddy.
This next year, I resolve to.....
- Grow my hair out another 6 inches (told you some would be vapid)
- Let my gray hairs grow out rather than cover them up...I'm going to be 36 years old. At what point do I admit to myself I'm getting old enough to rock gray hair?
- I'm going to rock my uniqueness. I found the Oregon state motto (pictured above) on a Quotable card and I fell in love. I think I often forget that the thing that makes me me is that I don't like to be like everyone else. I may do it to fit in, but I don't like it. It feels uncomfortable.
- I will take my brother, sister and stepkids to Europe. This one is already on the books and flights are booked; however, I want to make a point of making a ton of memories on this trip.
- I will not participate in bully behavior. The next time I'm around people that participate in bully behavior, I will stand up for myself and/or the person being bullied.
- I'm going to not get a tattoo or surgery or a major illness. (Okay, I can only really control 1 1/2 of those things, but I'm going to do my damndest to try to stay away from unnecessary needles or pokes to my skin)
- I'm going to go on more dates with my husband. Of course, he needs to be a willing party to this one too but I'm going to make more of an effort to get him away from the xbox and out the door with me.
- I'm going to figure out what sort of stepmom I want to be. I've gone all over the board with this one in the last few years. First I was over-involved; then I'm not-as-involved. I can't seem to figure out a nice little step-niche that makes everyone -- most of all me -- feel comfortable. My oldest stepkid is graduating high school in a couple of years. It would be nice for all involved if we knew what kind of stepmom was attending the graduation ceremony.
- I'm going to be.... My brain is always swirling around with how I can be better. That's not exactly a bad thing except for the fact that over-analyzing can lead to self-imposed drama and frankly I'd like to spend my remaining years of my 30s actually getting super comfortable in my own skin.