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However, with my oldest stepkid starting high school this year, I can't help but notice the feeling that I'm ready to be an empty-nester. It's as though high school has become the gateway drug to a life of peaceful, quiet togetherness my husband and I dream about.
While some people have fantasies about Bradley Cooper, I fantasize about waking up with my husband on a random Thursday, reading the paper, drinking some coffee and going for a nice long walk without having to worry if the kids are okay back at home.
I'm ready to not have to worry about the little things. I'm ready to talk to my stepkids on the phone and ask how dorm food is. I'm ready to show up for Parent's Weekend of College of Choice University and down a cold one with my now legal stepchild. I'm ready for it to be just my husband and I.
And because I'm hungry for coupledom and solitude, I feel like I must be a wicked stepmom. I worry that I shouldn't feel this way. I worry that people will read this and think "Good GOD -- WHAT A BITCH! She doesn't want those kids around!!!!"
That couldn't be farther from the truth. My stepkids are the cat's pajamas. They're great kids whom I lucked out in getting to parent.
If I could do some arm-chair analysis right now, I think it has more to do with my husband and I getting along fairly well right now and my wanting to spend time with him to hone that bond we seem to have going. Like every other blended couple, we never had that "just us" time and because of his work schedule, we have even less of it. While most couples can hire a sitter for a mid-week "date night" my husband and I can't. We jam as much family togetherness as we can into our 36 hours together so that it lasts until the next week (or two) until we see him again.
I don't mind the family togetherness...I enjoy game night, post-karate demonstrations and Stepmom's Special Sunday Morning Lemon Sugar-Cookie Pancakes. They're traditions I don't want to give up. I just wish we could fast forward past high school and into college -- where everyone is on their own and less dependent on one another.
Back to my main point, being am I a wicked stepmother because I want my husband all to myself? Am I living up to Hollywood's expectation of a stepmom that looks forward to the kids being away at school?