Recently she wrote a post on her blog that has me paranoid. She mentioned about feeling slapped in the face by someone she thought was a friend. The very same weekend, I also saw that she was a fan of this blog's Facebook page.
Me thinks she may now know I have a Stepmom Blog.
I don't know for certain if her post was aimed at me or if she's mad at me (although we haven't communicated in two days so I'm starting to suspect it's me she's mad at).
The fact that I might have offended her with my blog -- of which 75% of the time is about own personal feelings about being the 'intimate outsider' to my own family; and 25% of which are on observations I have about how stepmoms and mom act toward one another -- has me feeling confused and upset myself.
I really, truly do consider her a friend and that I don't know if she's mad at me has me kvelling all sorts of different directions.
I was having a really bad day yesterday. This was one of the major reasons, my not being able to figure out how to keep myself and my whole family healthy is another reason. When I logged on to participate in Peggy and I's radio show last night, I was so ready to crawl into bed that I actually did the radio show from my bed (TMI?).
But then our guests reminded me of a few things:
- My admissions about my true feelings may have hurt her feelings.
- The fact that I hadn't shared this part of my life with her may have hurt her feelings.
- She may have other things going on in her life that are upsetting her and our not talking right now may be a symptom of that.
I'm still hopeful that if my blog is why my kids' mom and I are not talking right now that we can achieve a truce and remain friends. (If you're reading this, friend, can you forgive me? [insert puppy dog lip here]?)
By the way, if you weren't able to tune in to the show Monday night but still want to listen, you can check us out on our show page: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/thestepmomstoolbox and download our show from there.