I'm exhausted, depressed and lonely.
I just found out my husband had to schedule a third trip to China which keeps him away from home for the last half of October. Upon his return I still have no idea -- nor does he -- if he's back out West, at home or off to live some place else.
Work is proving to be a challenge mostly because I'm not getting a lot of support where I need it from some of my teammates (instead of cheering on my digital efforts, I get a "nah, bad idea).
My house is sort of messy and I'm discovering -- thanks to progress reports -- that one of the kids is nearly failing half of their classes.
All of this negativity and sad loneliness is dragging me deeper into what I suspect might evolve into my very first nervous breakdown.
I'm not entirely sure what a nervous breakdown feels like. According to my good friend wikipedia, a nervous or mental breakdown is when you "snap." I'm not sure I'm ready to snap. More like curl into a big ball on my bed and not get up for a month.
This scares me a little because we're still in the fairly new into Fall and we haven't even gotten close to Winter weather and I'm already more depressed than usual. I'm sure I'm not quite at breakdown level. More like burnt out with a side order of depression.
I'd give anything for a two week sojourn to my mother in law's beach house in Washington state where there is no t.v. but fresh fish for miles. Ahhh, if only.
Why am I writing this seemingly out of the blue post? Because I think I'm going to take a blogcation for the rest of the week and I don't want anyone to wonder what happened to that Erin chick who writes that experiment blog.
Until next week....
p.s., should I actually have a nervous breakdown, I'll be sure to send a postcard :-)