For the most part, my life is an open book when it comes to my stepkids' mom. She knows a lot about what's going on at our house which is fine with me. I don't have a lot to hide.
Except for when I do.
This blog, for one thing, could become a source of animosity if she knew about it. I haven't shared it with her and unless it gets turned into a book or sitcom some day, I probably never will.
While this blog is about me and the roller coaster that is being a stepmom, I have written a few things that probably wouldn't go over well with her. Every once in a while I worry that she'll find my blog, read it and will raise hell with my husband because of it.
On a few occasions, it's caused me to rethink the topics I blog about.
One of the other topics I've kept off limits with her is my pole dancing classes. I'm always sure to cover up or not wear my "I do my own stunts" pole dancing t-shirt and "iPole" hoodie when I see her. I'm even a little nervous about wearing them around the kids. I've caught both of them stealing glances at the skinny lady doing a spread eagle on the pole on my t-shirt.
My stepdaughter knows about the pole in our basement. In fact, she's even climbed up it, but more because she thought it looked like a fireman's pole and she wanted to test her strength. I have mentioned to my stepdaughter that I take a class sort of like ballet that I use the pole for but that's where it ends.
I do wonder if these two things about me will ever reveal themselves to her. I'm pretty sure the pole dancing will, particularly if I am feeling SMILF-y and I accidentally forget to change my pole t-shirt. As for the blog, unless something major happens with it, I'm probably safe, but I still wonder: what would she do if she found out about these parts of my life?